I realized this week that I haven’t had the energy or inspiration for “art” in several months. My blog-babble friend, NRKII, is taking a break from her writer’s blog, and it made me take another look at my output and motivations.
While I still have the desire to write, I have completely lost the ability to even consider picking up a brush. Still, I was thinking I “had” to — or “ought” to… and it was making me miserable.
So I am officially on hiatus from card making, art projects or any other crafty projects for the time being. I need to regain the energy and enthusiasm so it’s fun, something I wake up looking forward to, instead of waking up in the middle of the night dreading.
Would I take a break if I were making any money from these projects? Probably not. If I were making money from it (and needed the money), then I would push through the discomfort somehow. Just as, every day, millions of people around the world go to jobs they don’t enjoy (if they ever did) because they need the money.
But I don’t make money from cards (other than things I “sold” to my mother — how pathetic is that?). Or paintings. Which has been fine, I have painted for the love of it.
And when I love it again, I will go back to it.